I won't lie that many times I have felt so guilty, and quite to often sad by the fact that even knowing the risks of having another child with Sickle Cell Anemia, we moved forward and decided to take the chance... And it used to hurt me a lot and many times I have felt angry when I heard this question: "Why would you take the risk if you knew the possibility?"
I just wished that by the time we decided to move ahead, I have heard of the alternative: In vitro.
One thing I knew for sure, and deep on my heart, was that coming from a big family and having many siblings I wanted this to my child. From my friends that were the only child, I learned that the best gift my parents gave me other than been there for me, was giving me siblings. And because of that I had a great childhood, and cherish many memories.
The beginning of my second pregnancy wasn't easy as my first one. As the same time I was growing a baby, there was a cyst growing on my right ovary, and I had to be followed closely. And because of the hormonal imbalance caused by the cyst I had very bad morning sickness and lost a good 6 pounds on the first 12 weeks.
But my baby was a fighter from day one. She was stronger and she took her space and she made it to 41 weeks!!!!
Then came the reality check... Yes, she was born with Sickle Cell Anemia too. And unlike her big brother she was hospitalized (Thank God, the only one from date) before she turned 1.And seeing what she means to us, I am learning that there is a reason why she made it.
It amazes me how can a little person be so full of wisdom. She gives us strength. She keeps us together. She makes us feel like we need to be better. We need to do more.
She is the best sister, the best daughter and very likely the best friend someone could have.
Today, despite the guilty, I can see that she came for a mission and she is sure following it through.